am I strong??

am i seen as being a strong person...in the context being strong against any problems, being independent and having no problem in solving any situations.
perhaps that is the impression that people are getting from me...
i am seen as the person who stands up for her points hence she must be a strong person.

so they found out i had a HUGE problem till 4 months ago, they were surprised and had been always assumed that i just being disappeared from singapore for simple reason.
they never expected that i was being at the lowest point in my life.
nonethless, all my friends are being supportive to me and glad for me that i am better now..
guys (and girls also)..thank you for being there for me....specially those who supported me so much through sharing sessions...=)...love you all..muach muach

judgement....comparison...subjective??

being judgemental...comparing one person to another??
i think it happens to a lot of us..despite the fact that we are supposed to be objective towards others since everyone has his/her own ways and being unique...
sometimes, we simply judge a person based on a certain set of standards - which are commonly our own personal ones, from our point of view.

and even in some case, we also judge ourselves.
despite having more/extra stuff than most people, we think, or even believe that we are being lack in something. that we are not good enough. that we are supposed to be better in one thing or another. and eventually we are turning into a perfectionist. who demands highly from himself/herself and expected others to follow in suit.

it happened before to me and it hit me very badly. i lost the confidence in myself and believed that i have no capability at all, being the most useless human ever existed...
it really caused a lot of emotional damage to myself. after 3 months on the road to recovery, i can't say that i am okay yet. i still have a lot to do to "repair" myself and put myself back on my own shoes without looking down on my own self. hence when someone asks me if i am okay, i didn't answer that i am okay/well. but "i am getting better day by day..on the road to recovery".